I'm doing trashtalking

I bring some news! Both of good and bad.

...... Hang on, I wanna greet you first, my readers (I wish I had).
Hello, friends! I hope everything is going fine with you. I'm fine here :)


Okay, let's end that shitty bullshit. I don't want to talk like shit further. Actually, I'm not really fine.
Seems like I got something on my heart, my mind, even my throat. Something like a stone but hot. It's maybe a stone which is being burned. It so much disturbs me.
It's something that I can't share with anyone, even my closest friend. Because, I do not know what is exactly going on me. Aaaaaaaaaargh words aren't enough to explain my feelings.
Lemme take the example. Yesterday, I felt hurt, seemed there was pain. My life was full of pain. And unfortunately, I didn't know the reason why I felt the pain. So, what did I have to tell? It wasn't because I wanted to keep that secret for myself but I had nothing to tell.

Something I be like that, I know I'm not fine but there is no reason.
In case, my mood swings in every single minute. Or maybe second. Well, it's too hyper.
What I wanna do is just shout, scream, and cry. And laugh, and smile. Somewhat insane. You know what, these things really make me fed up. I am fed up more than like crazy. More likely I'm dying.
I..... I know this is so bad. While I'm thinkin' about this, I lose my concentration. I can't perfectly focus on studying.

I'm afraid it will ruin all my life. Well, not that amazing. If I just know the reason, I can end up this problem. But right now, I don't know. So, what am I going to end up? Nothing.


There was something really broke my heart somedays ago. My best friend was trying to cheat on me. I know her a lot and I also know when she lies on me. I guess, I'm totally dissapointed with her. I thought we were friend, but, what do you think? Maybe you were pretending that we were friend. Hhh I don't really care for you, dude.

Everything is just messed up lately. Not only me, messed with the balance of things, they did. Also.


I guess I got to move on another thing. Well, guess whaaaaaaat, my scores are getting a lot better than before :D It's a very good progress. I want to chase for PMDK. I need my scores to increase again and again, I can't let them fall even only once. And keep reading, this is even much better!

My scores keep increasing while the-smartest-person-on-my-class's are decreasing. I wish I could look him afterward. Woops, did I mention him? Well, this is the weakness of English, I cannot hide the gender. Then, my mom and dad already agreed with my plan to enter medical faculty. I told you, being a doctor is my biggest dream<3


Well, that's the end of this post. See ya on the next one, bye :)